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    July, 2009

    谁在这里等过你?

    把长发梳直,再坐到桌子前,我突然明白,我一直在文字里等待着自己。那些被辜负的美好时光,那些不肯等待疾步而去的决绝,都换成了文字里的轻纱罗裙,低吟浅唱。

      Frida用大片的色彩,黑暗里面的鲜红,来描绘穿透身体里的疼痛,那痛不可及,那自我挣扎,那通过自己的痛认识到他人的痛。阿伦特在被自私的海德格尔伤害后的多年,依然为可以重逢而欣喜,迫不及待的和他再次建立起情谊。西蒙波娃在第二性中写到:爱情是女人的最高使命,当她把爱情指向男人时,她是在通过他去寻找上帝;然而她和沙特一生为盟无法真正分割的爱情,似乎给她开启的道路并非上帝,而寻找到自己,一个作为女性的自己。通过自身,她看到的还有其他的女性,看整个世界用的是自己的爱情,自己的感悟。

      爱情是女人的最高使命,通过爱一个人,她们寻找上帝,也找到自己。我终究成长的那一刻,发现通过一条漫长而巨大的在文字镜框里看着世界,遇见了自己。除此之外,那文字一无所意。如同安娜·德·诺阿耶陈述过的自己的布娃娃,这些文字成为一个青年人手中精美的布娃娃,成为双重自我的需要,你会在夜晚把她用天鹅绒裹好。

      理解了这一意义以后,我突然发现,再陈列透视着自己、也透视着世界的文字愚不可及。然而爱上一个人,也不过是在人群中等候并相遇了自己,同样愚不可及的事情却充满了温暖,假如可以温暖到深入骨骼的清冷。

      莉香,撑着红红的伞站在雨中等着完治,到店面打烊。

      而你曾经等过谁,而谁又等过你?

      那个相遇的人,因为相同的部分让你假设:那是你们从小待在同一家幼稚园里。

      然而亲爱的你,你用了什么样的方式在生命中等着自己?

      你必须承认,以某一种形式,你等待。在夜色最深的时刻,你突然安静地睁开了眼睛。月桂树开着月白色的花,芳香四溢,你等待着和自己的相遇,或者分离。

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